A little bit about my life..

Ah, so today I thought I would start my very first blog. It's nothing special or at least I don't think it is. I just wanted to be able to put my day to day experiences out there and hopefully release some stress now and then. My husband is doing a year tour in Korea, and so my boys and I are back in my hometown in Tennessee. It's nothing like it used to be, thats for sure. Everything has changed and it is so different. Even the people that I grew up with are not the same anymore. It makes me glad to know that I will be leaving this place again, unfortunately not soon enough. 


It has been such a long time, since I have actually wrote my thoughts down and I hope that this does me some good. I recently started working again at the same place I worked for in High School. I enjoy it on most days, but others not so much. I love getting to talk to and interact with everyone. With my husband being gone, it really helps to keep me busy and make this time go by a little easier. 


As for my boys, oh boy, I don't even know where to begin. Lol. They are amazing. Caleb is my oldest, and he just turned 3 in March. He is already girl crazy and it is making me nuts. This is most definitely something his daddy should have to handle. Lol. He is so smart and he amazes me everyday in many different ways. He is probably the clumsiest kid I have ever seen. Honestly if you didn't know us, you would think the poor kid gets beat on a daily basis, lol, but he can stand up and trip on his own feet. Brayden is my youngest, he turned 1 in January. He is into everything he can get his hands on. And he absolutely loves to eat. He will hide food and go back for it later, because he is sneaky and smart like that. He reminds me and the rest of my family of my great uncle. The way he dances, his love for food, and even the faces that he makes sometimes are just so similar to Tincie that it makes us cry when we see it. They are just amazing kids, and I know alot of people brag about their kids, but I truly believe I have 2 of the best little boys ever;)


So far this year has been very hard for us. My husband left in January, just a few days before Brayden's first birthday, and that was really hard to do alone. I had the support of our families and a few of my friends, but it just wasn't the same without him. I tear up just thinking about it. Valentine's Day was hard also, because out of the 6 years we have been together, this was the first Valentine's Day we have spent apart. It is sad, but we have been together on more Valentine's Days than our anniversary's. March was Caleb's birthday, and he really wanted his daddy and his big brother there, and this was the first year that neither of them were a part of it. April 8th was my birthday and I have never felt so alone on my birthday than I did this year. All I wanted was my husband home, but there was no chance of that happening. 


Here recently I joined a group on Facebook, called the Air Force_HUA Hunnies, and I have never felt so accepted. I know to many of you that may seem silly, but right now this is as close as I get to be to the military. Sometimes I feel like these girls are there for me when no one else really is. I could never explain how much appreciation I have for them, and how the site gets me through every day life. Just getting to talk to other girls who are going through the same thing that I am helps so much. 


I miss my friends in Florida like crazy, well most of them anyways. I wish that they were here with me to get me through this and pick me up when I am feeling down and out. I miss my little stepmonster, Kyson, more and more as each day goes by. I can't wait until my bestie and him come to visit us. I am counting down those days as well. And they couldn't get here soon enough. 


I also started school online for Medical Billing. I am taking classes through Allied Business Schools, but it isn't going as well for me as I would like it too. I don't really have the time, I thought that I would have to work on things. To be honest, it kinda seems like a joke of a program, I mean, its all online, and I have no help. I feel like I am failing at it already, but I am hoping to get it together soon.


Everyday is a constant battle for us in one way or another. We are just doing the best we can to make it through this time. I keep telling myself we have 3 months down, and believe me, we are all counting down the days. I love you Mr. Ivy, and I can't wait until this year is over with<3