Such a rainy day...

Today was such a rainy day, even after the rain was long gone, it still felt so dreary. Work wasn't too bad, aside from the fact that I was sick over half of my shift. I woke up super early today and it paid off, because I got to talk to and see my husband on Skype and it made my day. I only wish that our boys could've seen daddy too. I know that they miss him so much, and they show it more and more everyday. It honestly breaks my heart and brings me to tears when I can see how much they miss him. I miss him like crazy, but I know that I have to be strong and keep it together for my babies, even when I just feel like giving in and falling a part. The longer I go without getting to see him, the worse it gets, and I absolutely hate that feeling of not knowing how he is doing or if he is okay. I know that he is missing us so much, but I am happy that he at least has people over there who is going through the same thing that he is, who understands how he feels, and who can be there for him. At the same time, I am super jealous, because even though me and my boys are back in our hometown, I have never felt more alone. We are surrounded by people and I feel all alone. I turn to my girls online for encouragement and support, and for the most part it really does help. It would be even better if they were closer, close enough to actually be a shoulder to cry on. I know that some people have it a lot worse than we do, and I am thankful that I get to talk to my husband as often as I do, but damn, I am so ready to have him home. I love you babe, and I just want you to know that. 107 days down, way too many to go.